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Just Breathe. I'm watching everyone around me succeed, Just breathe. While I'm over here, a failure. Just breathe. Everyone is staring, Just breathe. Late at night in my room unable to sleep, Just breathe. The marks on my arm are getting deep, Just breathe. I won't, can't tell anyone, Just breathe. I wanna give up and be done, Just breathe. Another day begun, Just breathe. Just breathe. Just breathe.

Depression. The word is very over used, isn't it? Every day you hear at least one person say, "I'm so depressed" in a joking manner. You hear people make fun of others because of mental disorders. This world we live in is so sick. and it doesn't help that we have a society where girls are supposed to look, feel, act, perfect. It doesn't help that society makes guys feel like they can't cry, have to be tough, have to prove they are good enough. Everyone should be accepted for who they are. doesn't matter what religion, race, sexuality, interests. Everyone should feel loved for who they are. No one should feel like they have to change just bec

It's hard to sleep when your brain is so full of thoughts.. Thoughts of gunshots. the urge is so tempting, to see the crimson flow. No... My brain is full but my emotions are empty.. I need to cry, I can't. It hurts, so bad. But I'm not even mad. I just want to feel some emotion. It feels like I'm drowning in an ocean, an ocean of my own thoughts... and I can't swim. Life just seems so grim.. It's 1am, and I'm not going to sleep anytime soon. I want to escape this prison, but my mind will keep me imprisoned. "Don't be lazy" "You shouldn't be so tired, you're young" "You have such a good life, don't do anything foolish" Hah, tell that to my f

I need you. Because right now everything seems blue. I feel alone but I know I'm not. All this time, with these toxic thoughts, You've been there. This world just seems so unfair. I feel like no one will care if I just fade into the air. If I wasn't so afraid of leaving pain for the people who do care I might not even be here. I don't want to die... Just disappear. But Lord you have a plan, and that plan is greater than me. I beg here on my knees, praying you take this pain away from me. But lord, I know you will use this as a way to help others. For me to show them they are not the only ones in this fight. To help them see the light in this

They don't hear the voices in my head, sometimes I can't even get out of bed. Sometimes I think I'm already dead. But they don't know that. All they see is the bright, cheerful girl that everyone knows and loves right? The girl that never leaves someone in the dark so she brings a light. The girl that acts like a bright light in the night. They all love her. But I'm not her, And she's not me. We may be in the same body but we are so, so different. She's always around when everyone else is, but when I'm alone in my room she leaves. And all her hopes and dreams she believes, She takes them with her. Alone with the other voices, They don't give

It doesn't matter, NOTHING matters! Eventually it will all go to tatters. and I will be left alone while it all shatters.. Alone I will stand, While everyone around will misunderstand. With my pen in hand, I will stand, Writing things no one else will understand. With my book at my side, I will abide, To the way I have to live, For I have not yet died. With my hyperactive mind, It is very unkind. But I will not be blind, I know how my mind thinks. Although the thoughts never shrink, I will not have to rethink. I know what matters and what does not matter. And it all will NOT go into tatters. I may have to stand alone, and everyone I knew may